I have realized lately that by making it a POINT to have A great day, it usually works. Not that I am this ridiculously depressed person, but I definitely have my moment. About a few weeks ago I had the worst few weeks of my life. Lost someone very close to me and then some very bad things happened with a couple friends. And it got to the point where I was showering and dropped my shampoo and cried. Yelling “one more thing and I swear…” And I decided to make light of everything because who truly likes being upset? And if you knew me, you would know that I am a very happy person. I laugh a lot. So when I am in the dumps, it’s legit. I stopped and looked at myself and said “I hate who this person is”, “I miss laughing and being happy.” And that’s when the best week of my life happened. Shortly after that amazing week, more bad stuff happened. “God can I please catch a break” were my thoughts. I am now back to making it a point to be happy. It works. Despite the soon divorce of my parents. Despite the lost love. Despite the backstabbing friends. Despite the loss of my job. Despite being broke. Despite the hard times… There are plenty of worse of people. I went to NYC a couple years back with the intentions of praying for the people that are hopeless. It opened my eyes to a lot. I will never forget that. I have it great. I complain despite the roof over my head. Despite the food in my stomach. Despite the amazing friends I have. Despite the INTERNET I have. Despitea family that loves me and would do anything for me. Despite the little bit of money I am getting from babysitting. Despite the cell phone. Despite the car. Despite the Fathers love. I am pretty sure I will be okay. It’s selfish to be depressed. So many people care for you and being depressed kinda shoves it back in their face. Granted there are things that are going to hurt, death, any kind of loss, things like that. And there will be bad days. BUT there WILL be BETTER days. So look forward to those days and forget the bad. Nobody moves forward in life holding onto the past.
